Going To The Mall

“What’s your best moment with your mom?”

“When I take my mom to the mall and while using escalator, she holds my hand thinking I still scared of these though she scared of escalator from beginning but I don’t say anything because it reminds me of my childhood.”

Abhishek

My boyfriend and I have agreed for me to meet his son today and I am terrified. I have never been in this situation and none of my friends have been in it either. Stepping out of my old 2008 PT Cruiser I am reminded of the choice I am making. ” Why are you doing this to yourself,” are the words my friends keep uttering when I mention it, and to be completely honest I am not sure why I am doing it.

I have repeated in my head a multitude of things that can go wrong. What if I say something wrong, what if she does not like me, what if his 2 year old son does not like me? All these ‘ what ifs’ rushing through my head as I push open the door. What if I am just like my mom?

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I am 17 years old, rebellious, a know it all, and most importantly independent. My mom is bringing my sister and I to the movies at the local mall and I am excited and ready to watch. As we pull up I am on my phone texting my friends and paying little attention to what is going on outside the minivan. “Hey look, it’s dad and Jennifer!,” my sister pointed out to my mom and me.

My mom got this spark in her eye and began her rant, “Theres the slut and whore that your dad is with!” My mom stated as if it were a fact written in a history book. Nope I will not put up with this. I opened the vans door and walked away, while my sister and mom got mad at me. My stepmom gave everything up for me and my sister and my mom just seen her as someone who stole her man.

While walking away my mom chased me with the car so I could get back in, but my mind was set to stay as far away from her until I calmed down. I ran and hid in the Burger King nearby and eventually my uncle called me and picked me up. No one was mad at me because they knew what happen and that my mom’s illness was devouring her, I just never knew how much.